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Think Good Things....Get Good Things

For sometime now things at my job have not been well. I do my job and it seems that I can't please everyone all the time. I have people talk about me behind my back. I am tattletaled on constantly. I have to watch my back and I am to the point that I feel that if I don't do what my supervisor says that I will get fired.  I have found that through all of this I am stressed out, tired, and ready to give up. This week I was on a break from work. During that time I have been doing some thinking and found out a few things. One of those things is that when I am not at work I am less tired. Mostly because this entire week I did not think about work or let any of the pettiness get to me. I shook it off.  This week I was able to sleep well and relax. That is something when I am at work can't be done. I had more energy this week than normal. Work seems to zap the life out of me. When you have to be at work at 7am (or 5 minutes before) and don't get to leave work till almos

The Empty Chair

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It does not matter how long it has been since a loved one or someone that we were close to passed away the holidays are still hard. Mom has been gone 2 years and I still cry. It happens to the best of us. We get emotional about it and for good reason. Life is not the same.  People tell me all the time that I should move on, I have memories, and that tears should be over. No it is not that easy. My Aunt Joem said she refuses to celebrate the holidays since Uncle Pat died cause it is just not the same. Yes life does go on, but there is still the empty chair.  The empty chair is something that will never go away. It will serve as a reminder that our loved ones are gone to a far better place and that one day we will see them again. The empty chair serves to remind us of the good times we shared.  As I drove to and from dinner this evening. I got to thinking about some of those memories of holidays past. One of my favorite holiday traditions was to gather together with fa

What Are You Thankful For?

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Today is Thanksgiving. That gives me pause to think of all the things that I have been thankful for. During the month of November people post what they are thankful for each day with the hashtag #Thanks. I have been doing this, but I decided that today I would compile a list of 30 things that I am thankful for. Here is my list of things that I am thankful for in 2017. 1. My family 2. My faith 3. My car 4. My friends 5. My health 6. My job 7. My home 8. Food and clothes 9. Good weather 10. Days off work 11. Memories 12. Sleep 13. Love 14. My ex-boyfriend 15. That Jesus died on the cross for me 16. Music 17. Grace 18. Prayer 19. Early Mornings and Late Evenings 20. Pain 21. Warmth 22. Life 23. Children 24. Aunt Joem's baking 25. Chocolate 26. 2 hour delays 27. Weekends 28. Fridays 29. Chicken Salad from Costco 30. Time with my Sister What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving?

Jeremiah

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May 22, 2011 the most amazing man came into my life. Over the 6 years that we were together he became a man that I could see spending the rest of my life with. A man that near the end I fell deeply in love with and didn't want to loose.  Jeremiah was such a sweet, kind, caring, compassionate man. He loved me for who I was and ever wanted to change me. He made me feel special. He made me forget when things were going bad. I could get lost in thoughts of him and forget that my life was far from perfect.  Jeremiah was far from perfect. I accepted that fact. It took me a long time to see how much I loved him. The night that I finally fell in love with him it took my breath away. It was a feeling that I never had felt before and I didn't want to loose.  It was after that that I began to read Song of Solomon. That whole book of the Bible is a romance novel. As I read it I imagined Jeremiah and I being who Solomon was writing about. I imagined our love so perfec

First Love

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The other day as I was driving home from work I was listening to the radio as I always do. I was flipping through the stations when I heard Kenny Chesney's  Me and You . That song got me to thinking about my first love. You know your first real love will never leave you. It is something special that you just have to hold on to. It changes you. I know that mine did. However hard I try to get rid of it I am not able to. I will never get over it. When you find that first love you know it. I know that I did. Sure I had dated before, but with Jeremiah things were different. The first night I met him I knew that he was the one. He was my forever. To this day I still believe that he is my forever. You can never escape your first love. Once that someone that you have fallen in love with stops feeling the same way about you it is hard to forget how they made you feel. Sure you can try to move forward, but they will always be a big part of your life. I know for me t

Tattletale

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Have you ever worked with someone that never talks to you, always talks about you to others, and when you do something they feel is wrong goes to tell the boss about it instead of talking to you? I am sure we all have that one co-worker that is a tattletale. They are always in the wrong. So to cover up their tracks they go to the boss and tell tails on you. Then you wind up in the bosses office explaining the situation. Before you know it everyone in the building knows what happened. We all have that one dreaded co-worker that we try to avoid. That one person that if you even breath wrong they blow it up and go tell the boss some wild story about you. That one person that makes you feel like you would rather be dead than have to work with. You know who I mean. More often than not we are stuck with this person. We can't avoid them no matter what. We can't escape their tattling on us. I am sure you are like me and pray that this person or persons are absent. You pray