Showing posts from 2017

Mark Lowry...His Music Carried Me Through

It had become a Saturday Night tradition with Mom and I. We would turn on WVPBS at 8:00pm and watch Classic Gospel. It was a program produced by Bill Gaither that featured his Gaither Home Comings and some of the videos that he produced over the years. This program was how I fell in love with Jason Crabb. I also got to love Vestal Goodman, Dottie Rambo, The Issacs, The Hoppers, Ernie Hass and Signature Sound, Lynda Randle, Ivan Parker, Gordon Mote, Guy Penrod, David Phelps, and Mark Lowry. It was because of that show that I started buying some of the Gaither Homecoming CDs. I would play them in the car when Mom and I were traveling places. It was one of those programs on Saturday Night that they played songs from the Gaither CD, Rock of Ages. One of those songs was called Does Jesus Care/God Will Take Care of You by Mark Lowry. Mom loved that song. She told me after the program that I needed to get that CD so that we could play that song often. Mom loved God Will T

Please Park Considerably

I don't have anything for handicap parking myself. However, I do take my Uncle and my Aunt who each have their own handicap placard places. When I take them out we use their placard to park as close to the building as possible. My Uncle has had both hips replaced, has arterial fibrillation, irregular heart beats, and breathing issues. My Aunt has balance and coordination issues. Too often when we go places we have to take the nearest spot to a handicap because the handicap are full. Too often I see people getting in and out of cars parked in the handicap spaces that are not handicap. They don't have a handicap license or placard. These are the same people that abuse the motorized carts in the stores. Yes, I am aware that there are some handicaps that you can't see. Those people I am not mad at. But, when a person parks in a handicap spot they should have either a handicap license plate on the car or a handicap placard hanging from the rear view mirror. Then there are


Webster's defines the word Tolerance as  sympathy or indulgence for beliefs or practices differing from or conflicting with one's own (this is one of 4). Recently a friend of mine wrote about how she was being tolerant of something going on in her life. I have had times in which I was tolerant of things going on in  my life and the lives of those that I loved. I didn't want to loose them from my life so I decided it was ok to be tolerant of their behavior rather than to be objective of it. You see Jesus taught about tolerance. In his day Jesus communed with people who were the outcast of the society of that time. He did not judge them for the things they did or who they were. He loved them all the same. John 15:12 says  This is my commandment, That ye love one another , as I have loved you . Right there in that verse he says that we need to love each other as he loves us. That is unconditionally without fault. This theme is found many more times in the bible.

I Will

I recently was watching a sermon from Pastor T.D. Jakes in which he was saying that if you speak I Will over your life that you will start to see changes in your life. I never thought of that before. So I thought about it for a bit. I am reminded of the woman with the issue of blood. She said to herself that she was going to touch the hem of Jesus' garment and was going to be healed. This was something that had never been done before. She said it over and over again. She was reminding herself of what she wanted. She did what she set out to do. It made God ask questions.  That woman had faith. We need to be like her. We need to have faith that when we say I Will do whatever it is that it is going to happen. When you say I Will whatever you have sent the devil running in the other direction and allowed God to come into your life to do great things.  We need to speak I Will statements over our lives everyday. We will in time see results in our lives. We will see our lives

Thanks Journal

As we go into 2018 I have been thinking about things that I can do to strengthen my relationship with God. One of those things is to keep a Thanks Journal. A Thanks Journal is a journal in which each day you write down all the things that you are thankful for. It will remind you of the good things in this life that come from God.  Here are some tips for keeping a Thanks Journal. Don't just go through the motions. Journaling is more effective if you chose to be happy and grateful. Go for depth over breadth. Elaborate about several of the things that you are thankful for because it carries more benefits. Get Personal. Focusing on the people that you are grateful for has more of an infect than focusing on things of life. Try subtraction, not just addition. Take time to focus on one blessing and state what your life would be like without it.  Savor Surprises.   Try to focus on those in expected blessings cause they help you be more thankful. Don't over do it.

Christmas Traditions

Many of us have traditions of things that we do at Christmas each year. Some are things that we have done since we were a child. Others are things that we have come to do later in our life because of how our lives have changed.  As a kid we had traditions at Christmas. On Christmas Eve we would go to my Aunt Sandra's house for dinner and opening of gifts. Then at 6:30pm those that wanted to would gather up and go with Grandma to her church for the Christmas Eve Service. On Christmas Day the Grandparents and Aunt Virginia and Uncle Ed would come to our house for soup and sandwiches as well as a gift exchange.  Times have changed and family members have gone on. My sister and I are making new traditions. With her work schedule it is sometimes hard to spend Christmas together. So we have our Christmas on Christmas Eve. We have a meal, open presents, and then we go to some of the local Christmas Eve Services. This year we are going to the Valley Baptist and War

Not In The Mood For Christmas

I love Christmas. It is my favorite holiday. Most years I am ready for it and can't wait. I am like a kid in a candy store about it. This year is different. I am just not feeling it at all. I feel like skipping the whole thing. The holidays though are to be a happy time they bring with it for some depression. At the holidays some miss family members and become depressed. Christmas is more than just giving and receiving of presents. It is the remembrance of the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It is remembering that Jesus came as a baby boy and grew to become a man that would later die on the cross for you and me. I remember that thought, but I still can't get into the spirit of Christmas. It seems like this year the spirit of Christmas has been zapped out of me. It is like there is no joy in the holiday for me this year. I just can't explain it. This too shall pass. I will get over it. It is just a phase. I think that once I start playing my Christmas music

Think Good Things....Get Good Things

For sometime now things at my job have not been well. I do my job and it seems that I can't please everyone all the time. I have people talk about me behind my back. I am tattletaled on constantly. I have to watch my back and I am to the point that I feel that if I don't do what my supervisor says that I will get fired.  I have found that through all of this I am stressed out, tired, and ready to give up. This week I was on a break from work. During that time I have been doing some thinking and found out a few things. One of those things is that when I am not at work I am less tired. Mostly because this entire week I did not think about work or let any of the pettiness get to me. I shook it off.  This week I was able to sleep well and relax. That is something when I am at work can't be done. I had more energy this week than normal. Work seems to zap the life out of me. When you have to be at work at 7am (or 5 minutes before) and don't get to leave work till almos

The Empty Chair

It does not matter how long it has been since a loved one or someone that we were close to passed away the holidays are still hard. Mom has been gone 2 years and I still cry. It happens to the best of us. We get emotional about it and for good reason. Life is not the same.  People tell me all the time that I should move on, I have memories, and that tears should be over. No it is not that easy. My Aunt Joem said she refuses to celebrate the holidays since Uncle Pat died cause it is just not the same. Yes life does go on, but there is still the empty chair.  The empty chair is something that will never go away. It will serve as a reminder that our loved ones are gone to a far better place and that one day we will see them again. The empty chair serves to remind us of the good times we shared.  As I drove to and from dinner this evening. I got to thinking about some of those memories of holidays past. One of my favorite holiday traditions was to gather together with fa

What Are You Thankful For?

Today is Thanksgiving. That gives me pause to think of all the things that I have been thankful for. During the month of November people post what they are thankful for each day with the hashtag #Thanks. I have been doing this, but I decided that today I would compile a list of 30 things that I am thankful for. Here is my list of things that I am thankful for in 2017. 1. My family 2. My faith 3. My car 4. My friends 5. My health 6. My job 7. My home 8. Food and clothes 9. Good weather 10. Days off work 11. Memories 12. Sleep 13. Love 14. My ex-boyfriend 15. That Jesus died on the cross for me 16. Music 17. Grace 18. Prayer 19. Early Mornings and Late Evenings 20. Pain 21. Warmth 22. Life 23. Children 24. Aunt Joem's baking 25. Chocolate 26. 2 hour delays 27. Weekends 28. Fridays 29. Chicken Salad from Costco 30. Time with my Sister What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving?


May 22, 2011 the most amazing man came into my life. Over the 6 years that we were together he became a man that I could see spending the rest of my life with. A man that near the end I fell deeply in love with and didn't want to loose.  Jeremiah was such a sweet, kind, caring, compassionate man. He loved me for who I was and ever wanted to change me. He made me feel special. He made me forget when things were going bad. I could get lost in thoughts of him and forget that my life was far from perfect.  Jeremiah was far from perfect. I accepted that fact. It took me a long time to see how much I loved him. The night that I finally fell in love with him it took my breath away. It was a feeling that I never had felt before and I didn't want to loose.  It was after that that I began to read Song of Solomon. That whole book of the Bible is a romance novel. As I read it I imagined Jeremiah and I being who Solomon was writing about. I imagined our love so perfec

First Love

The other day as I was driving home from work I was listening to the radio as I always do. I was flipping through the stations when I heard Kenny Chesney's  Me and You . That song got me to thinking about my first love. You know your first real love will never leave you. It is something special that you just have to hold on to. It changes you. I know that mine did. However hard I try to get rid of it I am not able to. I will never get over it. When you find that first love you know it. I know that I did. Sure I had dated before, but with Jeremiah things were different. The first night I met him I knew that he was the one. He was my forever. To this day I still believe that he is my forever. You can never escape your first love. Once that someone that you have fallen in love with stops feeling the same way about you it is hard to forget how they made you feel. Sure you can try to move forward, but they will always be a big part of your life. I know for me t


Have you ever worked with someone that never talks to you, always talks about you to others, and when you do something they feel is wrong goes to tell the boss about it instead of talking to you? I am sure we all have that one co-worker that is a tattletale. They are always in the wrong. So to cover up their tracks they go to the boss and tell tails on you. Then you wind up in the bosses office explaining the situation. Before you know it everyone in the building knows what happened. We all have that one dreaded co-worker that we try to avoid. That one person that if you even breath wrong they blow it up and go tell the boss some wild story about you. That one person that makes you feel like you would rather be dead than have to work with. You know who I mean. More often than not we are stuck with this person. We can't avoid them no matter what. We can't escape their tattling on us. I am sure you are like me and pray that this person or persons are absent. You pray

Halloween and All Saints Day

Today is Halloween. A day when parents dress their children up in costumes to look like their favorite super hero, movie character, or what have you to take them door to door tick or treating for candy. People like me either sit on their porches or by the door waiting to see what children will come to their house. Some places will have truck or treats. Some places the fire departments will have a family friendly party.  People will head out to whatever it is this evening. Some people will not celebrate the holiday for one reason or another and that is ok. Tomorrow however, is a holiday that goes unnoticed. All Saints Day is one that people usually don't celebrate. This is a day to remember all those who passed away in the last year. In the church we use to have a moment of silence for those who passed in the last year. All Saints Day is not just a day to remember those passed in the last year, but also a day to remember those that have gone on before us. It is a day


Have you ever worked with someone that was psychologically abusive?  Someone that had to be in control of things all the time and when their plans didn't go they took it out on you? Someone who used you as their verbal punching bag? If this has every happened to you then you are not alone. I have been there. At the time my co-workers thought that I was out of my mind. They could not believe that this would ever happen to me. Then they saw it in action and things changed. At first when this was happening I never thought of it as abuse. I thought of it as just how things were between us. One part of the abuse was to never share anything with me. That in a way was good. That way when things went wrong and I didn't know about it I was in the clear. I could use the excuse that I never knew about it in the first place.  Another part of the abuse was to make decision without getting my input. That was sometimes good and sometimes bad. It was bad cause whe

Live The Let Go Life

Some time ago I ran across a sermon by Joseph Prince entitled Live The Let Go Life . This sermon talked about breaking free from stress, worry, and anxiety. Recently I have been feeling tired and worn out. I don't sleep well and frankly by the middle of the day I am ready for a nap. I go home and some evenings I fall asleep on the couch or in the chair. I use to blame stress and worry on this, but I realized that it was more than that after hearing this sermon. I realized that I was fighting the devil or multiple devils in my life. I was fighting battles in my life that had turned into a war for my soul. I realized that I needed to give this fight over to God and let him take control. I need to do my fighting in prayer and then take a huge step back. Get out of the way and let God be in control. I know that when I get up each day I start my day with worry. I worry about what could go wrong with my day before it even begins. I have anxiety about going to work. I think up pr

I Want A Love Like That

Since I started working in the school system I have gotten to know a lot of people. I have gotten to work with some great teachers over the years. This week one of those great teachers went to be with Jesus. Ann Hodges will forever be remembered by so many who's life she touched in the time that she was here on earth. I got to know Ann when I first became an Aide. I was working in Special Ed and she was one of the teachers that I got to work with. I learned really quickly that she pulled no punches and wanted every child to succeed. She cared about every student. She challenged her students to be more than what they thought they could be. She even challenged them to be more than what others thought they could be.  She saw the good in everyone. There was never a person that was a stranger to her. She loved to talk to everyone. I know that even after she retired that when I would see her out she would talk to me. We would catch up and I knew she had


Most mornings I wake up I don't want to get up. I would rather stay in bed. Most night I go to bed worn and drained. Then I remember that I am blessed so much. God blesses me everyday and I am grateful for that. God blesses me in so many ways. Some that I don't even know. We all need to take the time to enjoy God's blessings for us. I was listening to Joel Osteen and he was giving a sermon on blessings from your enemies. I never realized that the lady at church that gives me a sermon after worship each week is showering me with blessings. Novel concept that I will keep in mind. I realized today that I am so blessed no matter what in life. I also realized that I can be a blessing in life too. Just like this week I sent a card to a family member who had missed church last Sunday. She thanked me for the card and said it really made her feel good. As I realized I am blessed every morning when God wakes me up. I am blessed when I am able to get out o

You Are Parked Illegally

So recently I went to church as I always do. When I got there I parked where I always park. Before I go farther with this let me say that my Uncle and my Aunt usually come to church with me in my car. Neither one of them drives. My Uncle has never driven and my Aunt doesn't drive due to doctor's orders. So this Sunday it was just me and my Uncle in the car. As I said I parked the car where I always do. I always park in a spot along the side of the church that has handicap parking. I put my Uncle's handicap placard in the rear view mirror before exiting the car as I do each Sunday. I really don't need to do this, but since this happened I make sure to do so. We went into church as usual. Nothing was said about my parking and that is normal. That was until worship. A man in his late 70s early 80s who had just had hip replacement surgery comes in with his single prong cane. He walks up to me and asks me if the placard in my car belongs to me. I tol