This time last year my then boyfriend Jeremiah met a girl in his town and became friends with her. I was told at that time that they were just friends. It was not long after that that we broke up and I came to find out he was dating her behind my back. It has been a year since they got together and I am just now putting all the pieces of the lies together.
I was being used. I can see that now. I can see that he never really loved me. That I was more invested in us than he ever was. Imagine that! He was lying to me the whole time. I was too much of a fool to see that.
I now know that my sister was right when she told me that I didn't need him in my life. That Jeremiah was only out to hurt me. I am hurt often when I think of how much I loved him and in the end he felt nothing for me. I put so much time into something that was never going to work or happen.
I know now that I am better off without him. There is still a part of me that loves him. I am going to work hard to suppress those feelings and move on with life. I don't need him anymore no matter how much I love him.
The truth only hurts for a little bit. However, a lie hurts forever. He has done me a forever hurt.
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